something to say for now

John Martyn - Go Easy

Looking at me you never find out what a working man's about
Raving all night, sleeping away the day
Something to ask
Something to say
Something to keep the pain away
Something I'd like to see if it's alright.

Life, go easy on me
Love, don't pass me by.

Spending my time, making it shine, gotta throw away the rest
Look at the ways to vent and amaze my mind
Something I need
Something I plead for
Something I have to say
Something to keep me safe while I'm away.

Life, go easy on me
Love, don't pass me by

One way for me, one way for you, one way for all of us
To get back home, do whatever we want to do
Nothing to tell you
Nothing to show
Nothing that you don't know
Something to play
Something to say for now.

Life, go easy on me
Love, don't pass me by

matching verses for nobody but a drunk me

now, would you bring me leverage
would you bring me illumination?

i'm obsessed with verses matching perfectly the number of characters
like:

prolongando dolorosas litanias de um amor que já morreu
depois de três dias apontado por Sirius Cristo renasceu

(prolonging painful litanies of a love that's dead already
after three days pointed by Sirius Christ was reborn)

or

eu perdido
e sofrendo
desmontado
e morrendo
procurando
felicidade
ou enigmas
escondidos
nas costas
das cartas
de baralho

(me lost
and suffering
torn apart
and dying
looking for
happiness
or puzzles
hidden
behind
the cards
from a deck)

you need the right kind of font to realize
how the verses sizes fit perfectly
but who cares?

you probably can't speak portuguese
don't even know why did i bother to translate
it's the habit of speaking professionally
you're not even reading
it's easier that way

i'm at work and i'm drunk

i broke up with my girlfriend and it makes me sad
you'll say "you have to move on..." and this crap you always say
go fuck yourself


i don't say this a lot, but it's what i feel
go fuck yourself
with your bible on how to become an asshole
you really think you're so smart with all this crap you say and everybody nods
DON'T YOU REALIZE EVERYBODY NODS, YOU DICK HEAD?

you give a monkey a voice, and he'll do better than you
your dumbness took hundreds of years to evolve
maybe thousands

thousands of years of people cultivating their taste for shit

i repeat, i broke up with my girlfriend and it makes me sad
and i KNOW it will go away, in time
i don't care

i lost myself right there
i don't care
i used to write for a reason
it doesn't exist anymore
i don't feel at home, away from my beautiful bride
and i'm not talking about my girlfriend
but about portuguese
how could a woman that don't really cares about you be more precious than a language?
a blank page never said "no" to me
never said "maybe"
never said "i don't know"

it's always there saying "i trust you. even if you're dumb. even if you're a coffee stain. i'll take you. i'll carry you. i'm all yours, and you're all mine"

but writing in alien feels like fucking with

i lost myself again
found myself staring at nothing, with cigarette smoke passing in front of my eyes
i wanted to say something
i can't remember what it was anymore

this is not meant for understanding
you wouldn't understand anyway, would you?
i know we tend to have a high impression of ourselves
i'm sorry
i'm not used to extend this to others
i've met, maybe, in my whole life, about 2 or 3 people who could understand what i said when i wasn't speaking only in controlled folly
and they spoke portuguese

if you are reading this, mister, you’re invading my privacy
this is the area beneath my pillow
this is the space behind my drawer
(characters numbers match)
i live so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so repressed
because if i set myself free, you would burn me
and i come to this corner to fart
i don't know

to run away from you

to run away from you i got obsessed with verses carrying the same number of characters

the only reason i stay alive, actually, is the sky
i look at it and it's beautiful
it's vast

i look at you and you're beautiful, you average human being
you are ALL beautiful
but you're shallow, stupid, vain, blind and insane

don't get me wrong
i am shallow and stupid and vain and blind and insane
just like you
but at least i am not pretending this pool of shit is medicinal mud

and i've kept my good intentions out of sale
didn't give them up for blackmail
they are right here
right now
and they hurt

i don't really have any question

now, would you bring me leverage
would you bring me illumination?

i don't really have any question
the thing is (really) it matched
i don't really have any question
all this seven verses here match

i don't really have any question
(eight)
an answer so simple - repetitive
(nine)
repetitive, as mostly everything
(ten)

this answer that, standing alone
won't really match with anything
(12)

no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no
no

you only bring me disappointment
(13)

i could die now or any given day
(14...)

but i can't force myself to care even about matching verses anymore
and you will never get it, till the very day i finally say good-bye
(i can't help myself
it's matching again)
ok, go fuck yourself


Apr 15, 2008